Why am I so fickle?

Do you know people who can never make up their minds about anything?   Well, I have never been one of those people.  I usually make all my decisions big or small very quickly.  Like the time I decided to enroll in law school after thinking about it for a few minutes.  I never discussed it with Lou even though we were married.  The idea formed in my head, I acted on it and the next thing you know I am a student for another 4 years of my life.

So why is it I have once again changed my mind about the blog?  I mean have never been so fickle about anything in my life as this blog.  One minute I am writing 5 days a week another, then the next week I am questioning how much time I have to spend on it, then out of the blue I quit without any warning after having a fight with someone in my family.  Once again I didn’t discuss the matter with Lou or anyone else.  When I wrote that final post, I wrote it, published it and the next morning announced to my immediate family I was done blogging.

They were all shocked and thought I was acting totally crazy and irrational.  Lou begged me to quickly change the post and I refused.  I can be so stubborn.  I cried and cried the first 2 days and then I formed a plan as to how to continue blogging without really blogging.  Really that makes no sense at all.  I signed up for Mad Mimi,an email service, and started sending out my “newsletter” which was another form of my blog.  Basically I was blogging via email.  The good news is I learned a whole new program and I am saving money on my blog because I switched hosting companies during this transition.

I was planning on continuing in this manner but really, who am I fooling?  No one!  The truth is I just can’t live without the blog.  I met with a friend who helped guide me on the book idea and I have written one page, but that’s it.  A book is something you marinate over, and slow cook.  Blogging is fast  and provides instant gratification.  You write, people read and comment and then you move on.  Once it is out there you really can’t take it back.  Unlike writing a book where in you can redo and redo and redo without anyone ever actually getting to read a page of your work.

So once again I have proved that I am totally human.  I made a rash, hasty decision and now I have changed my mind again.

I am grateful so many of you signed up for my newsletter because you will continue to receive notifications of my posts and future projects.

I hope you forgive me for quitting and then starting right back up again.  I know I appear crazy, hummm, I guess that is because I probably am crazy, well at least that’s what my kids tell me.  Sane can be so boring.

So as the saying goes “It’s a woman’s prerogative to change her mind” and since I am all female, I am the epitome of this saying.

Love to you all and thank you for being so patient with me and my mood swings.  Oh good idea, let’s blame my craziness on hormones, I like that!

xoxo tiffani

(plea for support so I don’t change my mind again:  If you live in Orange County and know my family and happen to read my blog, please refrain from discussing my blog with my family.  As I have mentioned before not everyone is a huge fan of “the blog” and it will keep me out of trouble if you avoid talking about me and my blog with my loved ones.:))