Sunday morning I woke up early and thought I better get started on my blog for Monday. Off to the kitchen to make my espresso when in horror I realized the espresso machine was not working. Sometimes if you change the type of espresso beans the machine clogs. This has happened before so I attempted to fix it but was only able to get one shot of espresso out of the machine before it completely died on me. Selfish as I am, I drank the one shot, so when Lou woke up there was no coffee. He looked at me in shock when I explained the circumstances and decided to drive to Starbucks. Tiara kept sitting on my lap and choking me while I was trying to write so I asked him to take her along. He took the 2 little girls in their pajamas and left for Starbucks. Twenty minutes later as I am finishing making breakfast I hear Trinity come into the house crying hysterically. I run to see what has happened and become hysterical myself as I see her face. Her face is scratched and her hair is a mess. I realize at that moment Tiara must have hurt Trinity like she hurts me. She has never ever hurt Trinity before and loves her more than anyone in the family, so I was shocked. I then realized that if I kept crying, Trinity was going to get even more hysterical. I pulled it together, and we got out the Neosporin and worked on her scratches. Lou and I then took turns hugging and sitting with Trinity while the other one watched Tiara and kept her at a distance. I wasn’t sure what to say Trinity except ” I’m so sorry, I will never let it happen again.” As sad as I felt for Trinity I almost felt as bad for Tiara. Tiara was in her room sitting in time out and sobbing. She kept saying to herself ” I hate TT, TT is mean.” She knew she had done something horrible and just hated herself for doing it. The whole situation was terrible and there wasn’t anything Lou or I could do to fix it. It is one thing when healthy siblings fight and someone gets hurt, but it is a very different thing when one sister is trying to comfort another and is suddenly attacked without warning. We all pulled it together enough to leave Tiara with my Dad and go to church. We definitely needed to pray for guidance.
The good news is that after lunch Lou took Trinity to get her new bike my parents were buying for her birthday present. She decided her face felt 70% better once she got the bike and once the rain stopped and she had a chance to ride it, she would feel 100% better. Thank God kids are so resilient. We finally got ready and got in the limo in the hail and wind and headed off to LA for Comedy for a Cure. We had a fabulous time, especially Lou with the open bar. At one point Adam Carolla was doing his comedy bit and Lou did one of his “yells” and Adam turned to our table and said “oh good, we have a drunk guy in the front.” I could have killed Lou and I tried to kick him but my mom was sitting between us. I was just grateful there was no dancing at the event because I did not want to see his “towel move”. The day was finally over and I was so exhausted from all the emotions from the morning and the Comedy event. I finally fell asleep at 11pm but kept hearing voices in my head and couldn’t sleep well. This is super common for me and one of the reasons I don’t like to go anywhere at night. Even if I am home early and only went to a PTA meeting I will re hear all the conversations from the night. I can’t turn my brain off. Tiara must have sensed my restlessness and decided to wake up at 2:45am and never go back to sleep. At 5am I started losing it and screamed to Lou “GET UP”! I slept until 6:30 but then had to get up for the day. Needless to say Monday was a blur and I could only manage basic necessities of life so that is why you didn’t hear from me on Tuesday. Happy Wednesday…
Samantha says
Tif – You are one in a million!!
You just made me smile, laugh out loud, get watery eyes, relate and think of a few complex issues….
As if I wasn’t a fan already? I love the way you take on and relate to life….
tiffani goff says
I love your comments Sammy… I was actually going to call you last week because I was worried you would worry about me too much if you kept reading my blogs. I know how emotionally attached you get, but I love that about you. Glad you are still reading…xo tiff
Mara Schantz says
Love it! I can just picture you while I am reading this. Love the towel move too, as you know.
tiffani goff says
I knew you would love the “towel move” part, hoping you were going to read it. miss you… xox
Samantha says
Hey, don’t ruin my cold-hearted bitch rep! Lol! Glad you know me my dear and yes, I do worry about you…but it is good thing. Get that espresso machine fixed so I can sleep at night! Hahaha ; ) And call me, you still need to come by and see my house you lil blogger xxo