Hmmm, “where did Mom go?”

Let’s start with talking about what happened to my will power when Trinity’s friend arrived at our home for a sleepover and brought with her over a dozen treats from the Corner Bakery as a hostess gift.  Well it hasn’t been pretty. 

When I saw her walking up with the 3 mini bundt cakes, 2 slices of cake, cookies, homemade pop tarts, coffee cake and good knows what else, I immediately started getting anxiety trying to decided what I could eat first.  I then started staking my claim on all the pastries I wanted.  It was pretty much one half of the tray.

I forced myself to eat dinner before indulging.  The minute dinner was over I brought the box over to the dining room table and started cutting the desserts in 1/4’s so we could all share and try each type.  I proceeded to eat a 1/4 of EVERYTHING. 

Monday morning I woke and could think of nothing but the goodies hidden in the top cabinet out of Tiara’s reach.  I finally took down the box and proceeded to eat so much I felt sick.  It was only 9am and I have already consumed more than my daily allowance of calories.  I decided to flush myself with water and avoid food for the rest of the day.  I swore that I wouldn’t eat the lemon bar I was saving for Tabitha nor the last 2 cookies. I think I can, I think I can……

I made a healthy dinner and we all sat together.  I made it the whole day with only eating a handful of almonds and I wasn’t even hungry. 

After dinner, at about 8:30 p.m. I walked into the kitchen to get some sparkling water and happened to look over at the cabinet.  It was screaming at me “OPEN THE DOOR, TIFFANI, EAT ME, EAT ME!!!!   I tried to walk away and then I told myself “WHO THE HECK CARES, EAT THE STUPID SWEETS!”  I quietly opened the door, I was feeling really guilt and didn’t want Lou to know I was finishing off the stash.  I grabbed the bag of goodies and sat down on the kitchen floor hidden in the corner by the back door and started eating my way through the lemon bar.  After I finished it off , I then had to finish everything in the bag, just so I could put my mind to rest.  I didn’t want any left overs taunting me the next day.  As I was finishing my last bites and contemplating how I was going to get out of the kitchen without Lou noticing  he walked around the corner and said “there you are!”

me:  “Shoot!  I was hoping you wouldn’t see me.”

lou:  Well, you never came back and it has been really quiet in here, I thought you may be hiding.”

Clearly he knows me too well!  He laughed and said “you know I love you when you are a little plumper.”

me:  “Yes, I know, but I HATE feeling plump and overstuffed but I HAD  to eat these!

And so I went to bed and swore that on Tuesday NO MORE SWEETS.   Well I would have succeeded if Tabitha didn’t make a fresh batch of chocolate chip peanut butter cookies.  Oh, I am so mad at her.  I have only eaten one so far, but it is only 5pm so I have to stay strong the rest of the night.  I think I may be able to refrain.  If I was a betting person I may wager against myself.

Have a wonderful day!

xoxo tiffani