I can’t believe it is November 1 and our family has to celebrate the holidays without Tiara. I have been dreading the holidays and now they are here. It is more than I can bare. Last Tuesday, would have been Tiara’s 17th birthday and the day was much harder to endure than I anticipated. I…
This is for you…..
If you can imagine I have a reader who misses my posts so much she checks my website everyday to see if I have emerged to write something new. So in honor of her (Courtney) and all my dedicated and loyal readers who used to visit me almost everyday to share in my tears, fears…
It’s been 3 months since she passed away.
I have been really working on trying to get us on a budget and get out of debt, now that I have time to focus on issues like money. Louie and I just started the Dave Ramsey program and I was working on our budget this morning when I started feeling really heavy in my…
My Stella…
For those of you who follow me on my personal Facebook you already know, but for everyone else here it is: I got a dog! Or rather our family adopted a rescue miniature poodle mix last Monday. I love Mickey our canary and yes he has been singing a lot but it just wasn’t enough. …
How am I coping?
Well it has been almost 3 weeks since Tiara passed away and it has finally started to sink in, she’s really gone. Today is the first day I have felt like crying several times and my heart feels heavy. Up until today I have been so busy, I haven’t stopped to think, but all of…
My Earthly Journey with Tiara has ended, she is now in heaven…
My middle baby, Tiara Jeanne Goff passed away from complications related to Tuberous Sclerosis at home on January 15, 2015, surrounded by her family. She was 16 years old. We placed her on hospice December 31, 2014 but I made it sound like a positive move to those who follow me on Facebook. I was…
Not much has changed….
I just read my last post, because I couldn’t remember how Tiara was doing at that time or what I wrote well over 3 months ago, but after reading it, I realize not much has changed. I continue to receive emails, messages, and fb posts from readers asking for an update on Tiara. I know…
Sometimes there are no good options….
Today I cried in front of Tiara’s neurologist as I described our life and Tiara’s current state. Tiara is completely drugged most of the day, but not a good drugged. She is drowsy, irritated and frustrated and can’t stop eating. She has gained 30 pounds since April and crawls most of the time because getting…
In and out in less than 24 hours….
I have been silent on my blog for over a week and after posting an update on Facebook regarding Tiara and her possible admittance to the pysch ward at UCLA, I went dark. I was so devastated thinking about leaving her in the hospital alone, I couldn’t really talk about the situation to anyone except…
I’m fine, not really!
Of course I’ve missed you all but I am sorry to report the move was worse than I could have ever imagined. Lou and I have never been more physically and or emotionally challenged, as we are right now. We moved in to our new house a week and half ago, and I have just…