Have you wondered where I went? Well, I am still here, but hanging on by a thread. I am writing this on Saturday afternoon and it is the first day in 7 days I have sat down at my computer. Why? Because I have been painting and scrubbing my house from top to bottom.
It is deja vu actually since I was doing this exact same thing last year. Last year we put our house on the market and I cleaned, painted and staged my house for weeks, but I staged it for myself, not others.
The house went into escrow for over asking price during the first week and then fell out. After that it was months of low offers and we finally stopped after 5 months and took it off the market.
Right now we are worrying about losing the house to the bank, so we decided to give it one more try since the real estate market has been really good in our area. This time I decided to stage my house for the mass public, which means getting rid of all the lime green, moving lots of furniture into the garage and taking down 3/4’s of my art. Last time I heard complaints of my paint colors and too much stuff, so I listened.
Easier said than done. Funny enough I actually love all the changes and am going to rethink how I decorate in the future. I still need funky stuff but not in the same way as before.
As I type this my hands are swollen, I have scabs on my knees and tops of my feet and I think I may have taken a total of 3 showers in 7 days. I haven’t watched more than 2 hours of TV the whole week and I fall asleep on the couch every night before making it to bed. Tiara has continued to challenge me, poor Lou has been working like a dog at home and at work and we as a couple are working hard to stay positive, communicate, and constantly re-evaluate our next steps.
We have been stressed and challenged for the past 15 years since Tiara was born, but lately it feels like we are at the peak of our stress. I sometimes wonder if we will ever get a break? I always try to remind myself that despite how ridiculously difficult our life is, we still have so much to be grateful for, which is why I continue to remain positive.
On another note, I have missed writing my posts. Normally when I miss a day of writing, I feel guilty or sad, but not this week. It’s like I didn’t have time to breathe.
I did feel guilty about a few things which I would like to share with you.
The first my relationship with the TS Alliance. May is National Tuberous Sclerosis Awareness month and I feel horrible because I haven’t been involved in raising awareness, despite what I do here. In addition, our Walk for a Cure is in Long Beach this weekend and I can’t even fathom getting my family to the walk, or participating in raising money. I also had to tell the TS Alliance that I wasn’t able to host the Annual Southern California Picnic in August this year like I normally do, just because, I can’t. I feel really bad, but at this point I have to give up everything that is not a necessity to keeping my family healthy, safe, and happy. So that’s it.
The good news is Mother’s Day was really nice even though Louie had to work. The girls gave me some great clothes and jewelry, I went to Church with my Mom and Trinity and then we all ate lunch at Rubio’s. Not fancy, but no one seems to mind Tiara’s loud screams and burps in that type of restaurant. I then treated myself to 3 donuts. Yay me! Despite Trinity’s protests (she thinks I should rest), I am off to finish cleaning my room because Monday the house goes on the MLS and everything has to be perfect.
Hopefully you will hear from me more this week.