I go to the beach. For the second day in a row I haven’t felt really upbeat. Not sad, not depressed, not happy or excited, just kinda blah. You know that feeling of being bored? You actually aren’t bored because you have a list a mile long to accomplish but none of it sounds fun. Not that life is all about fun, but some days I’m not motivated to do much and then I get super bugged with myself. I hate not getting a lot accomplished in a day.
When I woke up today I couldn’t decide if I should paint another room, finish some trim work, hang up all the pictures I have taken off all the walls, which are now leaning against furniture because I was bored with everything in my house, OR go for a walk. I hadn’t made a plan to walk with a friend but my Mother in law was coming to watch TT and it was so beautiful out, I should walk. I forced myself to get dressed for a walk. Where to walk? So over Balboa Island, the boardwalk on the beach, the back bay?
I suddenly knew what I needed, a walk on the beach. Sand in my toes, wind in my hair, and the sound of the waves crashing against the shore. As a teenager there wasn’t a week that went by in which I didn’t walk on this same strip of sand that was calling my name today. I no longer live across the street from the beach like when I was growing up, so I drove to my old beach, got out and walked.
It was heaven. I stopped worrying about my dumb house and focused on the birds. Look at this huge group of pelicans diving for fish. It was so fascinating to watch them fly around the school of fish and when the moment was right they would torpedo into the water.
As walked and saw the men with their metal detectors doing their morning sweep for coins, the surfers waiting in the freezing water just hoping the perfect wave or rather a wave of any size would form, I felt at home. I kept wondering why I haven’t I been here lately, why don’t I come here more often, I so need this?
I promised myself once again I will take time to visit the beach more often, if just for a moment, to feel the strength of the ocean in my grasp.
Have a wonderful weekend!
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