Today I am losing it. Tiara won’t stop eating and it is driving me insane. Over the past 2 years she has steadily gained weight because of her medications. Sometimes she is insatiable and no matter what I feed her she wants more. She is in one of those phases and I feel like I am going to have a panic attack over the situation. She is obese which is very dangerous for her health for a long list of reasons of which you all know. Last night she kept waking up and sitting up in her sleep because she was having trouble breathing even though she was wearing her oxygen mask.
As of 4:00 pm today she has consumed the following: humus, carrots, brown rice crackers, 3 turkey hot dogs, water, berry smoothie, popcorn, diet coke, at least 5 granola bars, 4 frozen pieces of chicken, and a big plate of homemade chicken tetrazzini from last nights dinner, which she served up to herself while I ran to go pee. I think I was gone 30 seconds and she managed to get down a plate, get out the casserole dish and start spooning some onto the plate. If I wasn’t so mad about the food I would have praised her effort because she was really dishing it onto the plate nicely.
As for the granola bars, they too were eaten has been against my will. Each time she took one out of the cabinet I would try and grab it from until she grabbed my hair or slapped me. I gave in after she resorted to digging her nails into my hand.
Every time she puts something in her mouth I feel panic. It’s like watching an alcoholic take that first sip after being sober. You know they are doomed, you want them to stop, you can’t help them and you have no control over the situation. The whole thing sucks. Yes, even my husband tries to pretend I have control over what goes in Tiara’s mouth , but I don’t always. I literally hide the granola bars, so she eats 2 cups of nuts. I hide the gold fish so she grabs microwave popcorn. I feed her a head of romaine lettuce every night with her dinner but she still wants the pasta her little sister is eating. I make her whole wheat pasta, skip the butter and add garlic salt. I give her one bowl, and put the rest in a ziploc in the refrigerator. I walk away for a minute and I find she has eaten the first bowl, gotten the bag from the frig and is eating more. This goes on all day, everyday and today I am at my wits end.
Lou suggests only feeding her fruits and vegetables. That is a great idea, but “those people” (Lou, Trinity and Tabitha) want other food in the house besides veggies. If Tiara and I lived alone I could stock only proteins and veggies but 3 other normal people live here who want other things to eat. Like, Lou loves brie. When I buy it for him I have to hide it in the refrigerator. If Tiara sees it she will grab it, run to her room and eat the whole brick in secrecy because she knows it is against the rules. Enough complaining……
Anyways, it was a very long weekend for the two of us because her caretaker didn’t come on Saturday so today I was really eager for her to show up and then I received the call this morning that her son was sick so she wasn’t coming in. Ohhhh…. So I didn’t have any help which meant I couldn’t take my eyes of of her for a second or she would start eating. Despite my best efforts she won. I emailed her doctor and she is trying to come up with a solution, so I am hoping she can pull a magic wand out of her cape and make it all better. Hmmm, a girl can always dream.