This is very hard for me to admit but for the past few days I have actually missed my husband. I think the last time I missed him was when we were dating long distance, 23 years ago.
Ever since we have been married I have continued to “play hard to get” as he calls it. I don’t require much of his attention but I love that he is always trying to get mine. It is our game. He follows me around when he is home always trying to cop a feel and tells me no one can see and I am always telling him, “everyone can see, love.” He rubs my shoulders, my feet and tells me how pretty I am all day long. I always respond the same, “glad somebody thinks I’m pretty, but I think you are going blind, darling!”
So we are coming up on his 1 year anniversary at the new dealership and he has never been gone so much in our 21 years of marriage. Monday morning he left for work at 8am and came home at midnight. Tuesday he left at 8:30am and was home at 11:50pm. I always come out to the living room around 1am to check on him and say hello and last night he was still awake, like normal when I got up to check on him. He then said, “I have to be up at 5:30am because we have our monthly meeting.” Well, I went totally ballistic. “What the hell? You have only 4 1/2 hours to sleep! GET TO BED OMG, Lou this is not healthy for you! You can’t keep doing this!” I think I may have yelled a few more comments but you get the point. This is a pretty common scene in our home.
Lou likes to unwind after work before bed but if you get home at midnight that doesn’t leave you much time. I get so worried about him, I get really angry. I was so mad last night I started sweating, my stomach hurt and I couldn’t get back to sleep. I finally went to the couch where it is cooler, so I could try and fall back to sleep. The oxygen machine runs all night makes our room really hot, no matter how low we turn the air down, so I felt totally miserable. I need a cold room to sleep.
This morning he was getting ready to leave at 6:30am and Trinity heard his voice. She jumped out of bed, ran out of her room and jumped into his arms. “Dad, I heard you talking, don’t leave yet!” He gave her at least 10 kisses and then we heard Tiara waking up. He walked into our room all ready with his suit and tie and leaned over to give her the same amount of kisses. I got my kiss and then he was gone for the day. It was at that moment I realized I really missed him. I hate him being gone all the time and no amount of money is worth him being gone this much.
I have been racking my brain to try and figure out a way to make our finances work without him working 16 hour days, but he doesn’t want to let this opportunity pass him by. He is committed to making this job work. I totally support that commitment but I hate him being gone so much. I know some women are happy their husbands are always gone working because they don’t really like them much anymore. I still really like my hubby even after all this time. go figure?
Have a wonderful day and I hope you love you hubby as much as I do!